Actually….actually I am doing really well. I have my Aspergers diagnosis, I am learning new ways to cope with AS. Yes, I have to say I am feeling better than I have in a long, long time.
I am learning new things every day, about who I am, about my limitations and boundaries. One of the best learning points I had happened a couple of weeks ago, during a walk with a friend. He told me a story his coach told him:
“Imagine there are two lanes on a road: one for the NTs and one for Aspies. We all drive along peacefully on our own lanes. And there’s no road sign that says the Aspies HAVE to merge. You can, if you want to, and sometimes it is necessary, but it is not obligatory….you don’t HAVE to fit in with that other group of people…”
That’s when I realised I really wasted a lot of time trying to fit in. I spent forever trying to like things I really hated. And so I’ve made a decision: I am no longer merging! Maybe every now and then, at my own terms, but basically I prefer to stay in my own lane…